Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Trust or Sink?

We are doing great here.... we have a plan of action and a DATE for the C-section!! I will be taken off of the magnesium I.V. right at 34 weeks, which is next Wednesday. I am so excited about getting this I.V. out of my arm. I have had to get the I.V. re-done ever 4 days, so I am going to be so glad to not have to be stuck again.
Also, our Doctor gave us a C-section date of October 20~ we are so excited to have a plan and a date! She just talked to us about this last night. She seems to think that there is no reason that I wouldn't make it 4 more weeks. I sure hope I can- then we will be taking these babies home with us! That was an unheard of dream to us about 4 weeks ago. We toured the NICU and got our minds prepped to see our sweet little angels in those incubators. We knew that God would provide and take care of these babies that He loves more than we do...but it was an extremely hard pill to swallow to think of these helpless babies being poked on and prodded on. We know that now at 33 weeks, these babies would be the "growers and feeders" in the NICU if God decides that they need to come on into the world...what a blessing!
I have been clinging to the story of Peter....do we Trust or Sink?

"And Peter answered him and said, Lord, if it be thou, bid me come unto thee on the water." Matthew 14:28

If you've read this account before, you'll remember that the disciples were in a boat and Jesus came walking toward them on the water. The Bible tells us that Peter called out to Jesus and said, "Lord, if it is you, bid me to come to you on the water." Jesus told him to come and Peter walked on the water for a while. Then he began to look at the boisterous winds around him and when he did, he began to sink. The next thing we see happening is Peter crying out to Jesus to save him.

As I thought about this account, I noticed that Peter had the faith to call out to Jesus and ask Him to let him come to Him, and at Jesus' word He stepped out onto the water. When Peter began to sink, he had the faith to call out to Jesus to save him. But if you'll notice, he did not have the same faith in Jesus when he looked at the "storm" around him. We are no different than Peter- we have faith in the Lord to step into the water, and if we get in trouble and start to sink we have faith in Him to save us, it seems that our trouble comes in the "middle" of the storm. That's when we have trouble believing and trusting Him. I trust Him to get me out there, I trust Him to save me when I sink, but can I trust Him when I'm in the storm and it's raging all around me? Do I have the faith to believe that He can keep me afloat? Do I forget Who is with me on the stormy sea? Most people find it hard to walk "with" Him in the storm.

This is where our problem lies. When Peter was sinking, Jesus asked him why he doubted? In other words...why did you doubt that I would take care of you while you were out here? We must learn to trust Him while we are in the boat, when we take that first step out of the boat, when we are sinking... and while we are going through "boisterous" times.


Ballentine said...

Adair! That is great news! I'm still praying for y'all, and hope the twins make it until Oct. 20 (Lorelai's birthday)!!

Amanda said...

Thank you for this Adair! Such amazing words that really spoke to me! I can't wait to finally see your beautiful miracles & Praise the Lord Most High for everything He has done, is doing, & will do for you & your beautiful family! <3

Meredith said...

What great news! Can't wait to hear more...you're getting so close! By the way, my twin nieces were born right at 34 weeks and spent about a week in the NICU, mostly for feeding reasons, but did just fine. Praying for you still!

Jason and Lisa Clark said...

Praying daily for all of you!! Thank
You for that reminder. We forget to trust in Him at times and never doubt the love of God! Jack and Lucy are his children that he has trusted you to raise and if I say so myself you are one heck of a mommy already. God bless you and your sweet family!!