Thursday, August 25, 2011

baby bump

Guess what...you are not going to believe this, but this post is not about Jack and Lucy! haha...It is about ME! believe it or not!??! I dreamed all of my life about the glorious day that I would see a baby bump on my body. I dreamed and dreamed and stood in front of mirrors and poked out my belly and just imagined of how great I was going to look all cute and pregnant! OH, I just couldn't wait! I even thought about pictures I would take while pregnant and how I would go to the beach, and the pool and just not be at all ashamed of my little bump!
WELL..... "little" it was NOT! At the peak of my pregnancy...it looked like this:
This photo was taken the day before I delivered. I could barely walk from one room to the other without feeling like I was going to topple over or die from pain...one or the other! ha!
I am about to air out some of my "dirty laundry", so get ready....
I have cried and cried and mourned the fact that I was never really able to have the "fun" pregnancy that I had always dreamed of. That is all water under the bridge, though, because I would never trade one stick of a needle or one day living in that hospital for the beautiful creatures that are sleeping in their bed right now.
The reason for this post is not to say poor, poor, pitiful me, but it is a way to release some of my emotions and let you know if you see me running around still looking 6 months pregnant (ha)...these are the reasons:
You see, when I had all of those dreams and wishes about my baby bump...I honestly only wanted that bump for about 9 month...nothing more, nothing less. But, mother nature had another idea in mind... I have now had that lovely bump for going on 20 months. I have what is called "diastasis recti" (or what I would fondly refer to as "my own worst nightmare") ha
Diastasis recti is when the stomach muscles pull apart during pregnancy. If you have ever been pregnant, this has happened to you as well, but when you are 5'5" with a short torso and pregnant with "Laney size" TWINS....your abdominal muscles do not slowly pull apart...they RIP...or what my doctor likes to say "Those babies blew your muscles out...like a tire".  With all of this being said. I am 10 months post-partum, and I look like I am 6 months ante-partum. So... I went to see about having the muscle repaired, and I was basically told that I would be crazy to have the surgery to repair the muscle separation if I have any plans of having more children. I am completely certain that if the Lord decides to bless us with more children, we would be so grateful (years down the road, of course). My general surgeon told me on Wednesday that if I had the repair done, I would 100% (not maybe) blow it out during pregnancy if I ever were to become pregnant again. So, obviously, no surgery is going to happen until Cal and I have decided that we are through having children. I wanted to have it repaired, not just for vanity sake, but b/c I have an actual hernia...so for safety reasons, we wanted it to be repaired, but not if that means that I cannot have any more children. Now, the plan is to go to physical therapy to strengthen those muscles and PRAY that they will move back together. I am letting go of a lot of my pride by posting this, but I honestly would covet your prayers... I know that only my close friends and family really read this blog anyway, and I know that you, as women (or men) would understand how difficult this is....it could be TONS worse, I know. I do know that in the grand scheme of things, this is NOTHING! Please know that I am not sitting around belaboring this small inconvenience, but it sure does feel good to "let it all out" ha!

Saturday, August 13, 2011

moments...

This has been a fun summer and we are trying to make the most of the very little family time that we have since Cal is working ALL OF THE TIME! He is working nights for the next week and I will be so glad when this "night-float" business is over! We took J and L to the pool and they LOVED floating around in their little floats. Lucy just kicked and kicked in the water and Jack kept hitting the water with his hands. They were so cute...
 They are pulling up to standing now and are cruising along the couch...their fave spot is by the gate where they can see mommy and daddy...
 Lucy-girl in her pretty bathing suit...
 looks like they are plotting something...
 Jack-man in his swim-trunks...
 Here is a pic of the playroom that I made for the twins... we LOVE having this room here for them to safely play!

 bedtime stories with mommy...
 GOOD MORNING!!! They sleep in separate cribs, but our favorite thing to do is to put them in the same crib in the morning and watch them play together...they are so happy in the morning! It is just the BEST time of the day!!
 They LOVE walking around the couch in their playing room...

They are just doing so many fun things lately...I feel like they are changing every day and I just can't keep up! I am just so proud to be able to watch them grow and change into the people that God has planned for them to be. Cal and I are definitely having the time of our lives!

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

9 month old movers!!!

WOW! 9 months have FLOWN by! I think about this time last year with amazement. This exact time last year, I was going into the hospital for my over 2 and 1/2 month stay in the hospital and in the bed (I was only home during that time for 3 weeks). I can't believe that on this very day last year, as I type this, my mom was on her way to Lexington to help me, and little did she know that she would be here for 3 months helping me while on bed rest (keeping me company in the hospital, bathing me, feeding me, getting Jack and Lucy's nursery ready, and keeping my home together while Cal worked), and then proceeding to stay with us another month after Jack and Lucy were born to help us with them. What an act of love and service...I only hope to be half of the wonderful mother that she is! She has always given 100% and I am so thankful to God for such a wonderful role-model as a mother.
Our little angels are 9 MONTHS OLD!!! This is so hard to believe! They are movers and shakers now too! Man, they are all over the place! Now, for the monthly updates...
Jack:
- You are 19 lbs and 2 ounces. You are 29 3/4 inches...ALMOST 30 inches...just one notch above 30~ You are 50th percentile in weight and 98th percentile in height! ha! You are one tall little fella!
- You are still taking 4 bottles a day. You are down to 7 oz. You are getting breast milk and formula.
- You are still doing a TON better with your eating. You are starting to open your mouth and accept some pureed foods, but you are much more into bland and crunchy! ha
- You are taking 2 naps a day now...you finally knocked out that afternoon catnap, with the adjustment of the daytime nap schedule. You sleep from 8p-8a at night and nap from 10:30-12:30 and then again from 3:00-5:00.
- You have breakfast at 8:00 when you wake up after you take your prevacid, lunch at 12:30 and dinner at 5:00. You have one more bottle before bed at 8:00!
- You started crawling on July 23...just 2 days before you turned 9 months old!
- You have started waving at everything and everybody! When we walk in to get you out of bed, you are frantically waving and smiling that big toothy smile!
- You are VERY into crawling. You are going everywhere!
- We made you a playroom out of our dining room the week that you turned 9 months old. It is WONDERFUL! You can crawl all over that room, and I know that there is NOTHING in there that will hurt you...well, I hope not at least! ha
- You went swimming in the big pool for the first time this month! You LOVED floating around in your float!
- You LOVE to splash in water, you will even lean over and put your whole face in the water..you are a very curious little person...it will freak you out a bit, but then you will lean down and do it again! ha
- You like to chew on your sippy cup, but you haven't quite gotten to where you will drink out of it on your own.
- You got you new "big boy" car seat this month. You were to tall to stay in your infant carrier seat. I cried the whole time the car seats were going up to the attic...I am such a sap!
- You are still obsessed with Ava, and will crawl over to wherever she is! You love to bounce in your "johnny jumper" ..you will swing in the thing and literally twist it and twist it and then lift your feet so it will spin as fast as possible and you will just die laughing the whole time...it is hilarious!
- You are truly coming more and more alive and turning into a "little boy". It is such a fantastic journey watching you grow!
LUCY:
You are 19 lbs and 15 ounces. You are 28 inches...You are 75th percentile in weight and 75th percentile in height! Perfect in every way!
- You are still taking 4 bottles a day. You are down to 6 oz. You are getting breast milk and formula.
- You LOVE to eat and will eat anything that we give you! :)
- You are taking 2 naps a day now...you finally knocked out that afternoon catnap, with the adjustment of the daytime nap schedule. You sleep from 8p-8a at night and nap from 10:30-12:30 and then again from 3:00-5:00.
- You have breakfast at 8:00 when you wake up, lunch at 12:30 and dinner at 5:00. You have one more bottle before bed at 8:00!
- You started crawling on July 20...just 5 days before you turned 9 months old!
- You are so sociable. You love people and you love to stare!
- You are not very into crawling... You will pretty much only crawl when you want to get to food, or get to mommy and daddy! ha!
- We made you a playroom out of our dining room the week that you turned 9 months old. It is WONDERFUL! You can crawl all over that room, and I know that there is NOTHING in there that will hurt you...well, I hope not at least! ha
- You went swimming in the big pool for the first time this month! You LOVED floating around in your float!
- You LOVE to splash in water, you were very cautious at first. When we started walking into the pool, you hung onto me with a death grip...you do not like to take too many risks! ha
- You like your sippy cup a little more this month. You still are not into milk coming out of it, but will tolerate apple juice!
- You got you new "big girl" car seat this month. I cried the whole time the car seats were going up to the attic...I am such a sap!
- You are still obsessed with Ava, and watch her all of the time! You love to bounce in your "johnny jumper" ..You like to grab onto Jack in his jumper beside you...you are SUCH a people person. I am SO glad you have Jack to keep you company sometimes... You NEVER want to leave my side! ha
- You are truly coming more and more alive and turning into a "little girl". It is such a fantastic journey watching you grow!